Friday Night

pertama gue mengucapkan selamat kepada futsal arab angkatan 2011 (angkatan gue) yang berhasil memenangkan liga futsal yg diikuti oleh angkatan 2007-2011. congratulation guys, you rock !!

hari ini hari yang sangat panjang. sehabis solat jumat, gue dan jawa (temen kosan) nonton film 'a walk to remember'. sebenernya gue udah pernah nonton pas malem minggu kemaren, tapi saat itu gue emang ga konsen ama filmnya krn nonton bareng gebetan gue. ya jelas ga bisa nonton, gue ma dia ngobrol mulu hehe

abis nonton tiba2 si nia bbm gw. nia itu temen gue di sastra arab. akhir2 ini kita emang lumayan deket, soalnya dia suka curhat. gue pun kadang suka cerita tentang si itu hehe :p

ini gue ama nia

ternyata hari ini tanggal 18 november. apa yg spesial? yup, hari ini hari pertama breaking dawn (twilight saga) muncul di layar lebar. harus gue akui, gue emang suka ama twilight. 4 novelnya (minjem ama temen, puas?) gue abisin dalam waktu kurang dari seminggu. seandainya hal itu berlaku untuk baca al-quran dan buku pelajaran ya :'(

singkat cerita, ternyata si nia ngajak gue nonton breaking dawn. lumayan nih, gue jg lagi bosen di kosan. pengen dong sekali2 ada kegiatan lain selain dota haha

awalnya kita mau nonton jam 5, si nia ga mau malem2. tapi ternyata hujan, jadi kami ubah rencana jam 7. jangan terlalu malem deh, gue jg ga enak . yomaaaa, hari pertama emang selalu rame. jam 7 pun ternyata udah penuh. si nia yg awalnya ga mau malem, akhirnya setuju buat nonton jam 9 dengan syarat di anter jemput. nyusahin banget kan, pacar gue juga bukan zzz

akhirnya gue ke jatos jam setengah 8. gue udah lumayan sering ke jatos, tp entah kenapa td sempet2nya gue nyasar -____- sampe sono, udah deh gue ngantri tiket. liat papan, masyaallah lupa kalo jumat. harga tiketnya 20ribu.  masalahnya, gue cuma bawa duit pas2an.

jd awalnya gue mikir tiket 15ribu. krn beli 2 jadi 30 kan? ya jadi gue bawa 30 doang (maklum anak kos, hemat). untung ada uang recehan deh, akhirnya gue bayar pake uang pecahan 20ribu, 5ribuan 3, 2ribuan 3. total 41ribu. eh si mbaknya gaada kembalian. seribu, dulu yg dipandang sebelah mata, sekarang sangat berharga bagi gue, dan gue harus ikhlasin T_T

setelah beli tiket, jam 8 gue ke kosan dia. gue takut kalo balik ke kosan gue ketiduran hahaha

di sono kita cuma berduaan dalem kamar. orang bilang, kalo cewe cowo berduaan, yg ketiganya setan.

tp sialnya, tadi setannya ga ada jadi ga ngapa2in (woy emang lo mau ngapain -,-)

disono kita ya ngobrol2 biasa, gaada macem2. gue pun berusaha jaga jarak, entah kenapa hahaha

tiba2 terjadi obrolan yg sangat brilian.

gue : eh kita jadi beneran nih nonton? pasti rame nih, gimana kalo ketemu temen d sono? ntar jadi gosip

sapi : iya ya, waduh gimana nih? gue pake helm aja apa ya?

gue : ogah gue jalan ama orang pake helm. yaudah ntar pas jalan lo gausah pake jilbab, jadi kalo ketemu orang , orang ga bakal tau kalo itu lo

taraaa , ide yang sangat brilian sekaligus goblok. dan ternyata dia lebih goblok lagi, dia mau2nya aja ngikutin saran gue. jam 9, kita cabut ke jatos. mayan deket lah

ternyata ide gue ga berjalan mulus. dia jadi was2, seandainya ketemu ama anak2 arab lain, gimana coba?  yaa allah ampuni dosa gue -_____- jadi tiap ketemu orang, selalu kami liatin dg seksama. 'kenal ga ya? oh kaga' sampah banget coba -,-

alhamdulillah kami masuk studio dengan selamat, tanpa ketemu siapapun *huft*

kami duduk di bangku D1 dan D2.

harusnya strategis, tp d situ ternyata justru buat gue ngantuk. takut rugi 20ribu, yauda deh gw nonton aja. dan wah, filmnya bagus. bagus, dalam artian entah apa. filmnya seru, juga banyak bokepnya. maklum lah, breaking dawn emang cerita tentang bulan madu edward ama bella kan? bete banget nonton adegan gitu, envy sih tepatnya haha

selesai film, kami berdua sengaja pulang paling terakhir. you know lah, takut ketemu kenalan di jalan haha

kami juga sempet naek lift berduaan doang, dan lagi2 gaada 'setan'nya . oh god, seandainya gue begitu bersmaa pacar, what a great momment. however, thank god for protect my mind and heart :)

filmnya lumayan panjang, jadi bikin laper. pengen makan, tp takut ketemu orang lagi deh jadi akhirnya gue makan di kosan dia pas nganter pulang.

gue sampe kosan jam 1, wow malam yang panjang. setelah semua itu, harusnya itu membuat gue suka ama dia.

but, i dont want to falling in love with someone who have a guy that she very love. trust me, its hurt.

it is like date, but it's not a date

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selamat malam
hmm mau nulis apa nih? bingung. gaada yang bisa diceritain soalnya haha
yah ngabisin waktu lah, gue belum bisa tidur nih.
hidup merantau, jauh dari orang tua ternyata lebih susah dari yang gue bayangin. bukan masalah homesick-nya, tapi ternyata gue belum bisa ngontrol diri sendiri.
kurang lebih seminggu gue udah ga kuliah.berbagai macam sebab lah, mulai dari gaada dosen, bangun kesiangan, telat bangun, waktu bangun yang ga tepat. yah, intinya gue males. entah kenapa, gue itu orangnya pemales banget. sekedar niat belum cukup untuk ngalahin males gue. pasti si males pake tarras 6 nih :D
gue sendiri juga bingung harus gimana. orang bilang, perubahan harus dimulai dari diri sendiri.
of course, yang mau berubah kita kan -,- jadi tiap malem gue udah niatin diri BESOK HARUS KULIAH !
eh paginya, niat baik itu lenyap bersama mimpi -_____-
penyebab gue males, tentu saja karena lepi. lepi? who's lepi? bukan leviathan, ataupun mantan gue -,-
lepi adalah laptop gue.you know, inilah yang menyebabkan gue betah 24 jam di kosan. lebih rinci lagi, pasti tentu saja  DOTA.
sempat kepikiran buat ngapus dota, tapi ntar gue ga bisa maen lagi -____- gue sembunyiin lepi di kamar temen, eh ketemu lagi (yaiyalah gue yg nyembunyiin). pas niat gue lagi kuat, pasti kang ipul tiba2 masuk kamar sambil ngomong 'mam, dota apa??'
yah, mungkin ini masa2 kegelapan gue. gue tau, gue ke bandung buat kuliah bukan males2an gini.
gue ga mau ngecewain keempat orang tua gue.
jadi, ini janji gue. mulai sekarang gue gak bakal males2an lagi !
oke sekian, gue mau tidur, ntar bangun siang lagi -,- btw, ada yg liat korek gue?

how pity -,-

what must i do now? maybe its only the one that im thinking now. however, i lost my guardian angel again. tonight, i tell her about my feeling. no, its not about 'nembak' (holy shit, my english are very teribble. maybe i must get an english course now haha), its just only 'mengutarakan'. you know? north hahahah -,-
its very hurt me, when she says that she only assume that im the only her brother, her curhat friend.
honestly, from beginning i've known that she have no feeling with me. never ! but i just only keep up my ego.
yeah, its my consequence to play with fire (goblok) please yah, jangan mempermasalahkan english gue. oke gue tau englishnya kacau abis, tp ini gue lg curhat -,- ga bisa mikir, tolong deh ngertiin perasaan gue -_____-
i like potato , you know? i dont know whats the relation of potato and my feelings, oh god i dont know what i type now -_____-
back to the laptop..
i lost my smsan friend again, i lost someone who can build up my spirit again, and the most important, of course, i lost someone who i very love.
at least, she ask to me, 'why you can fall in love with me? what's my special that you can interest with me?'
honestly, i dont know the answer. i have no idea to answer that.
tapi jika ku gali lagi hatiku lebih dalam, maka ini jawabannya :

aku cinta kamu. aku cinta semua yang ada pada diri kamu. kau bukan hanya sekedar indah, tapi takkan terganti

but, whats done is done. its time for me to move ooooooonnnnn, as far as i can, as fast as i can.
i never want to begging for mercy from you. i dont want your pity. i dont need your pity.
goodbye little angel :)

Congratulations, I Hate You

no one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are where you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise
but don't expect me to be happy for you
and don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I DONT WANT YOUR PITY.. I HATE YOUR PITY !!

taste your vanity
its sweet bitterness as you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams
you took them all
I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride

beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries

suffer alone in emptiness
I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake
disgust lies deep within your empty gaze

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

my envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars
leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine
yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve
I'll tear off your face to see your smile

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

Coldplay - Scientist

Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Don't speak as loud as my heart.
Tell me you love me, and come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
coming back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start.