how pity -,-

what must i do now? maybe its only the one that im thinking now. however, i lost my guardian angel again. tonight, i tell her about my feeling. no, its not about 'nembak' (holy shit, my english are very teribble. maybe i must get an english course now haha), its just only 'mengutarakan'. you know? north hahahah -,-
its very hurt me, when she says that she only assume that im the only her brother, her curhat friend.
honestly, from beginning i've known that she have no feeling with me. never ! but i just only keep up my ego.
yeah, its my consequence to play with fire (goblok) please yah, jangan mempermasalahkan english gue. oke gue tau englishnya kacau abis, tp ini gue lg curhat -,- ga bisa mikir, tolong deh ngertiin perasaan gue -_____-
i like potato , you know? i dont know whats the relation of potato and my feelings, oh god i dont know what i type now -_____-
back to the laptop..
i lost my smsan friend again, i lost someone who can build up my spirit again, and the most important, of course, i lost someone who i very love.
at least, she ask to me, 'why you can fall in love with me? what's my special that you can interest with me?'
honestly, i dont know the answer. i have no idea to answer that.
tapi jika ku gali lagi hatiku lebih dalam, maka ini jawabannya :

aku cinta kamu. aku cinta semua yang ada pada diri kamu. kau bukan hanya sekedar indah, tapi takkan terganti

but, whats done is done. its time for me to move ooooooonnnnn, as far as i can, as fast as i can.
i never want to begging for mercy from you. i dont want your pity. i dont need your pity.
goodbye little angel :)